I handed him over to the Lord for two years...and even though I've done this before, I can't believe the depth of my sorrow in leaving him. He will be an amazing
missionary, and I know that the Lord will mold him into an incredible young man. And I know I would cry more if he stayed, and chose not to go. I look forward to the day I am not crying at the mention of his name. While we sing the Primary songs with all the joy they deserve,I Hope They Call Me On A Mission, and the like...to actually watch them go through the door that says 'New Missionaries Enter Here'.sigh...
I could see the change in him after he dropped his luggage off when we first arrived at the MTC. The mantle was upon him and he wasn't looking back. I finally got the honor of pinning the name tag on MY SON. (those in the know, will get that statement) The little meeting they have is totally just to give you a couple more precious moments with your child, so I didn't mind, but I didn't pay much attention either. All I could think of was I wouldn't get to touch my son's face for two whole years. That I wouldn't hear him call me 'mommy' or hear his voice echoing from the den, as he joked around with his siblings..for two whole years. I wouldn't get to hug his teddy bear self whenever I pleased. As the movie ended, the tears began to flow. I am glad my son had given me about 5 tissues to muffle my sobs.I am grateful he took my hand during the closing prayer, it's like he gave me a gift. And as he turned to leave, I had to have just one more hug, and he let me have one. He didn't pull an 'Oh Mom let me go!' He even turned around for one last smile and wave. He didn't shed a tear, he was so full of joy. I am so blessed.
Idaho, please take good care of my boy.
8 comments:
Oh Mah! I'm so happy for you and your family. My prayers are with Elder K the younger. What a sweet picture.
your post brings tears to my eyes! I remember like it was yesterday instead of almost 6 years ago that I was the "new missionary enters here..." What a hard, but WONDERFUL day! Idaho will be so blessed with this great missionary!
You are so eloquent... I do believe that he will be a wonderful missionary, and most of that will be because of you. I'm sure Idaho will take care of him! I can't believe that we will be doing this in 19 years...
What a wonderul, and tender post. What a wonderful day for all of you. I am sure one filled with mixed emotions too. I hope your having fun in SLC shopping! hee hee! Momaz or Michelle from MC
Aww mah. I wish I could just mosey on over to NC and squeeze you real good. You have a great attitude about his absence for the next 2 years. You survived it once and will make it through again...and again...You could just be starting on this whole missionary thing if any of your girls go:) What lucky kids to have such a loving mom.
I'm sorry about the terrible service and rudeness in SLC. It's not like that everywhere. You must have picked the lousy places to go. That's really too bad and disappointing.:(
You are such a strong woman! It takes a lot to let your baby go, and I give you major props!
OH, I am so gonna be the crying mother when that day comes. Such a joyous yet emotional time!
by the way...
you are *smokin* hot in those picks:)
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